Charlotte's Ramblings

My new year's resolution for 2012

2012-01-27T23:27:00.010+08:00

Haven't been blogging and updating as much as I wanted to... and I know it's kind of late but I still want to pen down my new year's resolution for 2012.

In the year 2012, I am going to :
1. Be a better daughter, sister and friend.
2. Keep better control of my temper and not always push the blame to the PMS ‘cause it seems like I have it 24/7 and I’m just like a time-bomb that’s going to explode any second.
3. Be true to myself and I will not compromise what I value most.
4. Keep the people who I truly want and know would stick with me through thick and thin and let the rest go. Even if it hurts to finally let go after hanging on for so long, I should realize that I no longer have a place in their lives. Cause if I did, they’ll make the effort to keep me in their lives.
5. Never severely hurt another person’s feelings just because I wasn’t honest with them. Hence integrity is key.
6. Put in my best effort in everything that I do, be it in my studies or in dance. Also have to keep a constant reminder to myself that time waits for no man, and that I’ll regret if I don’t do anything about it.

This is almost a month late, but I hope you guys have a happy new year (maybe I made it in time for the Chinese one) and that all your resolutions made will not be broken! Well if you haven’t
written a list, then you’d better start working on one now!!

Skinny Love

2011-12-21T01:02:00.001+08:00

Come on skinny love, just last the year
Pour a little salt, we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right at the moment this order's tall

And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind

And in the morning, I'll be with you
But it will be a different kind
'Cause I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love, what happened here?
Suckle on the hope in light brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full, so slow on the split

And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind

And now all your love is wasted
Then who the hell was I?
'Cause now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

Come on skinny love
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my

2011-10-26T00:52:00.003+08:00

Life's so good. Am staying over at MBS for the night and the room we got is pretty amazing!! Great view just next to my bedside and the bed's sooo comfy. Ahh, gonna chill out and sleep soon ;)

2011-10-09T22:18:00.003+08:00

It's time to face reality tomorrow. I'm def not looking forward at all. And I'll probably never ever be happy after this week.

Please, I'm really praying that the last-minute crammming is sufficient, and I will really really study and work hard during the dec holidays if I really get promoted(haha miracle if i do) or at least advance!!

But seriously, I don't mind retaining for another year, it's just that I have to face so much if I do. Like meeting the principal and not to forget the embarrasement. But in return, you'll get a second chance to fix things back in place.

Guess I can only leave it all to fate now.

2011-09-13T05:16:00.002+08:00

Mr Lim approach me today after lessons and asked how I was coping with preparations for promos today. When he asked me that, I just felt a pang a guilt. I was guilty because I knew I haven't made full use of the holidays, in fact wasted it.

So, I've told myself and him that I would try my best for promos and I hope I wouldn't let myself or others down. :(

2011-09-11T03:05:00.004+08:00

HOLA.

MY ONE WEEK SEPTEMBER HOLIDAYS ARE ABOUT TO END AND I HAVEN'T BEEN AS PRODUCTIVE AS I'D LIKE MYSELF TO BE. PROMOS ARE IN APPROX 2 WEEKS AND I'M NOT EVEN HALFWAY THROUGH REVISION. I'M SUPER SCREWED AND I'M PRETTY SURE I'LL REGRET NOT STUDYING HARDER THIS HOLIDAY SOME TIME IN THE FUTURE. BUT IT'S TOO LATE(ONCE AGAIN). I SRSLY NEED A MIRACLE, AND I NEED TO START PRAYING EVERYDAY IN ORDER TO PASS MY PROMOS.

IN THE MEANTIME, I'LL JUST TRY TO COVER AS MUCH AS I CAN...

OH YEAH I FINISHED WATCHING BIG BANG THEORY S1 IN LIKE IDK 2 DAYS, IT'S CRAZY. SIGH, LOOKS LIKE I'M REALLY HOPELESS THIS TIME ROUND.

AND WHAT THE HECK I CAN'T POST THIS POST, AND I JUST REALIZED THAT I'VE GOT A BUNCH OF DRAFTS UNPOSTED!!

Torn.

2011-08-19T23:40:00.003+08:00

I'm extremely exhausted though I haven't really been doing much for the past month. Been barely scrapping through completion of tutorials and studying for tests(which I'm still failing terribly), not to mention revising for the past topics taught in sem 1.

There's approximately one month more to my promotional exams and I'm really doubtful about whether or not I'll be able to pull through. All the hope and determination has faded, and even retaining for another year has come across my mind a couple of times.

I'm just really, really tired.

I'm gonna be promoted to J2, bitchezzz!~

2011-07-31T12:36:00.004+08:00

Guys, I will be promoted to J2. I'm gonna work hard for the next remaining 2 months. Won't want to experience another scene like PSLE results collection in 2006, so I've got to keep reminding myself about that feeling and prove all you people who doubted in me wrong.

Gonna have faith and keep going strong. No more distractions(I hope)!

Go me!!!

Breaking Point.

2011-07-23T01:32:00.003+08:00

I got home really late on Wed night after an exhausting day in school (plus CCA). Despite being so physically and mentally drained, I still had to force myself to do the overdue + fresh pile of homework and that was my breaking point.

I don’t know why or how but I started to cry. I cried for failing my MYE so badly and mostly cried for my miserable life. Then that got me thinking, we have actually been studying for all our lives just to get a good certificate and job, then to work our asses off for the next half of our lives. Really? Is this what life is really all about? Studying and working?

I think many people(esp in SG) have just been brought up to follow the pragmatic route - that we should work in high paying jobs like finance, accountancy, law or medicine. And often we’d question ourselves – is this really what I want to do for my entire life? Why can’t I do something I enjoy for a living? But then again, without a certificate or money, you can’t do a single shit and you’d just wither and die in the corner with nothing to your name.

Anyway, I received the sweetest text from my sister that night and it really helped to release all the emotions that I’ve cooped up for so long. And I had a nice sleep that night.

2011-07-05T00:32:00.005+08:00

Oh my gosh, I have got so many pictures and things to blog about but I don't have the time! :(

I've been trying to post pictures(below) so by the time I manage to find time to start blogging again, I can remember exactly what I have been doing for the past few days.

Btw, my aunt managed to book a room at Marina Bay Sands this weekend!!! CAN'T WAITTTT!

2011-07-05T00:32:00.001+08:00

The past 4 days had been crazyyy!

My mid-years finally ended on Thursday and I've never been so relieved before. I do not look forward to collecting back my papers at all, I'm pretty confident for at least 3Us, but I'm not gonna talk about my stupid results now.

After my last paper on Thursday, i managed to catch Transformers (Rise of the something moon) and it was so good!!! Oh and we met this really cool guy outside the mall on this stage:

Then, it was my sister’s birthday was on Friday and we went to eat at Medzs – this really amazing place which sells Mediterranean food. It has the same concept as Marche/Shokudu, like the ones where you purchase food with a card. Food was really really good(and affordable!), would def visit that place again someday. Did a bit of shopping after that and I managed to get this cheap pair of purple (?) sneakers, which I still don’t know if i’ll ever wear it...

I'll be back!

2011-07-03T15:22:00.002+08:00

Will be back to blog soon. Hopefully.

haha I wonder if there are even people reading this space.

Happy half-new year!

2011-07-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

Today's officially the start of the second half of the year!

and I'll be back blogging with pictures in a couple of days! ;)

♥♥♥

2011-06-20T02:55:00.001+08:00

It’s my birthday today!

2011-06-20T00:13:00.008+08:00

Today turned out really good, actually a lot better than what I’ve expected. I think it was particularly good probably due to the fact that I did not expect anything this birthday, this way I wouldn’t get disappointed if I don’t get anything at all.

Anyway, I was just really grateful for the great company I had today. All I can remember doing today was pretty much eating! Would let the pictures do the talking instead:

Had a nice buffet lunch at MBS. This was the only food picture I took 'cause I was too busy eating. Haha pig. HAHA ER... started goofing around with Rach! I look really sleepy here 'cause I fell asleep on the couch.

Well, yeah this pretty much concludes my seventeenth birthday! ;) And thank you for all the texts/facebook messages, they've really made my day!

Motivation

2011-06-18T01:04:00.002+08:00

I really need some motivation to get me going and survive these 2 years of JC.

FAIL DAY.

2011-06-17T03:09:00.002+08:00

Just came back from one of the most hilarious evenings I've ever had. As you can read from the title above - hahaha it pretty much sums up how it had gone.

One of the incidents was that my friend and I tried to sneak into an M18 movie (The Hangover II) screening for the first time today(I swear I was feeling damn guilty!), but failed terribly. Haha we have been thinking of backup plans throughout dinner in case our plan to sneak in fails, but they were VERY flawed. We decided to gather up our courage(fine, just me) and head for the woman collecting tickets. She obviously requested for our ICs 'cause our tickets were highlighted and we gave anyway, hoping that she'd get her dates wrong.

She took awhile to scan through, and we thought she'd give us a green light until she said,"It's 1994, you're underaged right?"

Damn.

How happy are you?

2011-06-12T01:50:00.007+08:00

I wonder how many people can actually answer this question without any hesitations - that they're truly happy.